Misfortune and heavy loss.
1. A possible need for a vigorous, sudden end to old habits and modes of behavior, often involuntary.
2. Reverse: long life, security and safety.
3. Possible feelings of anguish and humiliation.
4. An extreme state of repressed anger, hostility.
To dream that you commit homicide, foretells that you will suffer great anguish and humiliation through the indifference of others, and your gloomy surroundings will cause perplexing worry to those close to you.
To dream that a friend commits suicide, you will have trouble in deciding a very important question. See Kill.
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